being alone during the holidays

(This has been reposted from Jan. 1st)

One of the things I don’t like during the holidays is the fact of being alone. I like the holidays but they just bring me down because there is no one for me or to have be shared with that someone special during this time of the year. I want share my life with someone but I know I would be asking to much in where I want be dating someone exclusive and sharing the same bed or let alone sharing thoughts and talk abou their passions whomever might want to date me, or at least have me in their life.

Seems like over the last couple of years that my bed seems to be so empty, even though I’ve been sleeping alone in my bed for all of my life. I know that sounds strange and all but for awhile that I felt like I had somekind of presense with me in my room watching me sleeping and being with me at night.

After meeting someone shortly after I starting taking classes at the local University campus, I realalised what I was missing in my life. Also, at that same time I realized how along I was up to that point in time. Though I never really dated that much over the years, granted I tend to get tounge tied and I would be acting like a big ass fool around people I really like to date or to have in my life in some fashion.

I would like and want to share my life with someone or be someone special love but then I’m asking for to much at this point in my life. Though I tend to be more of a homebody type of person, so I don’t get out that much to “play the field” that much.

At this point in time, think I’m better off alone and concertrate on my studies and trying to work at the same time too.

I want to write and say more here but I think I’ve said what I wanted to say tonight.

Peter